Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Endless Questions, Zero Answers

My week has been going really well...I am getting used to this 4am thing. I went out to lunch with my department today and it was a fun 2 hours off work. Haha. So I got on the first bus and took my usual 20 min nap while the somalis talked on and on...I wasnt bothered.I got off that bus and got on my last bus hoping to catch my hour nap. Then I checked my phone and found out my sister had called twice and she sent a text too. I was like 'damn Sade wont let meeven rest for 20 minutes.' And then I read the text....

I know I did not breathe for the next 10 seconds as I sunk into my seat. My head was spinning...it's still spinning as I write. I know I read someone's blog today about asking why when bad things happen..maybe God was preparing my mind for what was coming. NO, it did not work cos my question now is WHY?? Let me tell you what happened, maybe you will understand.

Our family friends Mr & Mrs.S lived in the next Close. Their daughter Bola was my class mate and their son was my sister's classmate. We went to the same nursery school and Secondary school...all four of us. The parents dotted on their kids..no one could mess with them o! It so happened that Mr. S was SS and so were the two kids.

FFWD to 2000...Bola took ill and died shortly...in her mothers arms. We werent best friends but we were good enough friends. The reality of death is brutal. Last September, my dad called to tell me that Mr. S was sick...the SS thing again and a few days later, he died...again in his wife's arms!

On Saturday, my sis in Naija called to tell me that Seun (the only surviving child) was in a car crash.He was returning from a vigil and he was tired so he fell asleep at the wheel and crashed. She said the injuried werent so bad...he was coherent...he was going to be ok. I said a quick prayer for him. Althrough the week I imagined he was improving although I did not ask. And then I got the text message from my sister "Seun dad in his mom's arms this afternoon."


WHY?

See I feel miserable right now..but I know it is nothing compared to what Mrs. S is going through. Every other member of her immediate family died in her arms. What do people sya to console her? That God understands? That God gives and takes? That it will be well? What will be well?

But then I remember this song:

Blessed be Your name when the sun's shining down on me
When the world's "all as it should be"
Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name on the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name


You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

I know its easier to talk because we are not in Mrs.S' shoes...but there is something we can do...if your reading this, please say a prayer for Mrs.S. I cant tell you what to say cos I dont know either.

Since we are alive and well..remember to thank God for the gift of life because thats what life is. I cannot say this...tell people how much you care about them. At least I know that if tomorrow never comes, Em will not wonder how much I care about him..because he knows.

I know this may not have been the most uplifting read..I just had to share and get it off somehow.

Keep smiling my dear bloggers. I am!

SapphireAster

6 comments:

Bijouxoxo said...

It's only God that can comfort Mrs. S. I'm speechless, but we must never question God, he knows best.

I've to call D to see how he's doing, even though i promised never to call him again until he calls me. Life is too short, to be holding grudges.

I spoke with our MET friend on Saturday, she's in IN now. Call her, after i heard her side of the story, i relaized she was pissed. Apparently, she was only being a good friend watching out for u to make sure u were ok, and u couln't even return any of her calls.

If to say na Em now, u go call sharp sharp.

SapphireAster said...

chai...busting me out like dat. I know now...eeiya how is she? I will call but the guilt mehn...

Belle said...

wow. may God be with her..
and people wonder why the AS-AS thing is a big deal..

SapphireAster said...

AMEN O. I really dont give the AS thing much thought but I think I will now. No one deserves that kind of pain. This one wasnt even As-As o...the husband was straight up SS

LondonBuki said...

Wow... I have put the woman in my prayers.

God is in Control, All is Well (Amen)

uzo said...

I have said a prayer for her. Wow!!! Makes me realize that when i think i have it bad, its nothing in the face of what others are going through.